i want someone to love me for who i am, not just because i am another pretty girl. i want to know that i mean something to him, and that i am someone he wants to be with. i dont want to always be the one to text first, or to say hi first. i want him to notice things about me, and to care about me. i want him to worry when i get hurt, not just say “oh okay”. i want to be special to him, i want him to protect me whn i need it. i want him to comfort me whn he knows i need it, not when i tell him or when i break down in tears. i want him to notice when i am hurt, or upset, not just when i tell him i am. i want to be able to tell him things without worrying if he will show or tell his friends. i want to be loved for my personality not my looks, i dont want to be compared to other people. i want him to be himself around me, and hold me. i dont want him to be embarrassed whn im around him, i want him to be proud when other people look at us, i want him to try to fix his mistake, or when i get mad at him, for him to show he cares and follow after me. when i run from him i want him to chase after me to show that he does care. not to just stare and walk the other way. i want him to understand what i feel, and not just use me like he can have anyone he wants.
but i guess life isnt fair, because he opposite of what i wanted.
he didnt chase after me or try to fix his mistakes. he lied and acted like he loved me for my personality, he never showed he cared if i got hurt, he never asked me how i was or how my day was on his own. i always asked first, he never texted me first unless it was 3 hours after school. i always go up to him to say hi, and i felt like he was embarrassed to be with me while we walked together. he never once hugged me on his own he stood there and i hugged him, of course he told me to hug him but he never leaned in. he thinks he can get any girl, well i guess my friend was rite, he is not the person i wanted to be with. but life treats pretty girls bad, especially with girls. but he would never do those things and i should have known better. i was wrong about this one and its time to move on and it looks like i already have <3(11 months ago)